I wonder what I look like in your eyes....

Let’s face it; I might never blog every week, so here I go… This MONTH:

Something awkward:  

Sitting with people you do not know. (Quite challenging to break the ice… it’s like a speed dating!)

Something embarrassing:

The food may not always be fantastic. (brrrr.. fish again? _)

Something stupid;

I spent a LOT of time to put on my makeup. Such a waste of time cause I lately look totally overdressed. Keep thinking is time to go all natural. (That would save more time, effort and electricity… nahhh “antes muerta que sencilla”!)

Something Happy:

Hot chocolate!     Yum!

Something useful:

Do leg lifts to strengthen your stomach, which, in turn, supports your lower back

Something I was reminded of:

Self-awareness leads to self-control

Something true:

Sometimes not getting what you want is the best thing for you

Something cool:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=77ChxU5LCYA

 One day you are 19 and you are planning for some day, without any idea of how life will come along. Someday is today. Today you are looking at her blue blue eyes, staring at you, just connecting, talking through her sight.  She smiles. That cute smile that makes something on your inside move. For a moment she forgets her surroundings and she drags herself to the nearest chair grabbing the seat, she tries to pull herself up. She finally, after much effort, stands up and realizes she is standing up by herself!  She smiles but suddenly tips backwards and hits the floor. She cries, looking for you to comfort her.  A minute later she is sitting on your lap and decides to try again, and again, and again.

I actually probably never planned for this day. But this day is today. Today I admire how many times she tried. It is something so common, yet today I observed and admired her. Babies don’t quit. They keep trying. That’s how they learn.  It amused me the thirst of discovering, of experiencing.  Today I understood a little bit more about God's love. Today I understood the miracle life is. One day there’s nothing and the next there’s someone, depending on you, someone growing, thinking, and feeling. Today for the first time since she was born I got mad at her after she slapped the food from my hands. Yet today I feel a little wiser, a little happier. Today I love her and admire her a little more.

Fall is the season of renewal, but it can also be a season of falling. These last days life is a season of ambivalence. After all, for something to be made new and fresh, it first has to have gotten old and worn. Perhaps our lives suffer the same fashion. Perhaps sometimes we need renewal; perhaps sometimes we need to fall in order to go up. Lately I have been running more; it serves as a barrier against an oceanic emotional current. I see the leaves falling from the trees and I feel melancholic. I miss Hawaii. I know I have never been very good facing changes and this idea helps me to understand my own feelings knowing that suddenly everything will look wonderful again.

I have discovered something, though. When I see her smile any uncertainty or fluctuation (especially when caused by conflicting emotions) I resume feeling happiness. Not a euphoric state of joy but just a quiet happy moment that whispers - "everything is good". To say the truth I find adulthood totally overrated, I have always picture motherhood blissful. Why then do I sometimes feel lost? I have heard comments glorifying how to be a mom feels like.

I truly think nothing is white or black and perhaps this is what gives life to life. Life is so daily. I hope for better feelings, I hope for being able to see the grass again on spring season and realize that these changes give color to my life. I find my family exquisite, that is a fact however I feel like an adult who cannot understand anything yet, but I am instinctively pleased by the resolution in laughter.

If I would ever talk to a new mom-to-be I will reserve my counsel but I sure will let her know all of this is totally worth it indeed.

Fun, fun, fun.....

Last week Kea Makai turned 4 months old! Time pass by so fast! Here is a video of how talented she is singing at 4 in the morning.

Some fun things we have done: went to Museum of Technology, of Tolerance, the IMAX, watched many movies at the movie theater, went to the "statues park" to the lake and laughed  a lot of how funny Kea looked on her swimming suit grandma Judith made for her... she looked like a cute Shar Pei

Just sharing...

I do not know what Kea's cousins like the best... the fact that Kea Makai is here with them or that she has fun stuff to play with and they can remember their "golden months"

Here is a picture of how Dariel enjoyed the swing that Kea Makai rejects to use. Funny!

David has been learning physical therapy for newborn + babies... here are some pictures of the good therapy session Kea enjoyed with her daddy.

 

 

Kea's first doll

Yep! She played for 15 minutes with her first doll (handmade Mexican doll). Aunty Elisa brought it from Pena de Bernal, Queretaro. It is a folkloric doll. Kea seems to love what colorful the doll is.

 

 

Aloha all!  Here is an update...

Kea Makai @ 3 months old.

 

 

 

MORE PICS

We took a break from everything. My awesome uncle went to the LDS temple and participated in very personal and sacred promises. He, his wife and his 3rd son were sealed.

 

 It was wonderful!

 

 

 

 

 

Every story has a beginning; ours started in "paradise".  Hawai'i has been our home, the place where we met, our refuge and part of our future dreams. We are not in Hawai'i right now but in reality HOME is where the heart is and right now our heart is with all of you, our family. HOME is us: David, Linda and Kea Makai.

To say the truth I resisted to the idea of blogging but at the same time I think is a good idea to help our family to shorten distances and feel closer by. It has been almost 3 months since Kea was born. We have enjoyed every single moment. I love her smile; it makes my day. I wish I have words to share with you the happiness that her presence brings to our life.
Even though I suffered her birth I would face that experience again just to have her with us. We hope you enjoy this blog and get to know Kea Makai through some videos and pictures. I am sure she will make your life happier as she has made mine.